Why I’m Doing Some of This

I’m working on a lot of “improvements” right now. I bought a blender so I could start making green smoothies and get more vegetables in my body. I’ve scheduled a personal color analysis and have David Kibbe‘s Metamorphosis book coming to me in the mail. As mentioned, I’m also working my way through Carol Tuttle’s “Dressing Your Truth” informational videos — those are all tools I am using to create a minimalist capsule wardrobe. I want everything in my closet to fit, look great, be made well, and be worn frequently. I realized I was stressing out a lot about what to wear for “real work days,” and so part of eliminating stress in my life (I’m too young to be stressed!) is to tackle this whole wardrobe thing. And I’ve got to say, I’m having a great time with it.

My job stresses me out. There, I said it. It stresses me out. I constantly worry that I’m not working hard enough, or that my hard work has created an incorrect or insufficient result, and that my bosses are going to talk one day and decide that I’m not useful, and fire me. But, at the same time, I am not enjoying most of what I do, and so, yes, a tiny part of me wonders if it would really be so bad, if that were to happen.

But I don’t have any idea what sort of job I would want to have, otherwise. This job is changing a lot of the perceptions I have had of myself up until now. Yes, I’m organized and detail-oriented, and I can be pretty sharp on remembering various details and puzzle pieces. But I don’t want that to define my job; I don’t like the fact that I am responsible for other people NOT being those things. I defined myself in that way when I applied for this job. I indicated that I enjoyed being organized, and keeping teams, etc, on track and cohesive was fun for me. While that was true, it did not directly translate to this job and this level of organization and organizing others.

I have to make a spreadsheet now, which seems like both busy work and something too complicated for me to deliver well. I’m stressing about it, and so have been procrastinating for about two hours, since I woke up and saw the email. 

I’m writing this particular blog post to get out some of my thoughts, and to tell myself that if I do a good job, it will be a good job… even though I don’t know if I believe that. When I finish my work today I am going to read the “Zero Hour Work-week” and probably spend a lot of time thinking critically about what I’m really passionate about, and would like to just spend all day doing. Right now the things that come to mind are bras, feminism and fashion, interior organization and minimalism, and the “big issues” which relate to those things… it might be silly to think that teaching 12-year-old girls that band sizes don’t start at 34 and cup sizes don’t end at DD would end teen pregnancy, but hey, it’s definitely not more far-fetched than whoever though abstinence-only sex ed programs would! 

I need to think about this more… after I make my spreadsheet.

 

Dressing Your Truth – Initial Thoughts

I am on day 3 of Carol Tuttle’s “Dressing Your Truth” free instructional video series. Some of what she says is a little hokey, but overall I am enjoying taking a bit of time to watch everyday. As she talked through the personality types today, I was categorizing people I know — my brother is definitely a type 2, my boyfriend is type 3 dominant, and my best friend probably type 4 dominant. I’m not sure of myself, yet, but a few Google searches this afternoon brought me over to the blog “unstuckification” and the author’s talks about being a type 1 dominant with a strong type 4 influence resonated with me. My (very initial, non-professional) opinion is that this is exactly what I am – type 1 dominant, with a strong type 4 influence. (It definitely would speak to when I do and do not like my job! I also think that it’s possible that when my type 1 is smothered by life, type 4 comes out and generally makes me feel inadequate, which I think I could trace to some of the low points in my life.)

 

Carol Tuttle’s four energy types. (source: http://thecarolblog.com/energy-profile-free/)

I’m looking forward to finishing the series in the next week and incorporating what I learn into my wardrobe mission!

Yay for Comexim! A Beginner’s Review.

Last week, I purchased two Comexim plunge bras in a 65HH – the Vivien and the Basic. The first time I tried them on, I was shocked by how narrow the underwires were. I’ve never thought about the width of my root (although I know this as a sizing issue for other women), and having tried mostly Freya, Panache, and Bravissimo brand bras in my lifetime, had never really noticed any differences in underwire width.

The Comexim bras (and as I understand it, Polish-brand bras in general) have more outward volume, and less width volume. I would also say the cup size runs slightly small large – in similarly shaped bras from other brands I wear a 30H or 30GG comfortably. ** Edit: Since I didn’t purchase these directly from Comexim I had no idea what their sizing was like! They don’t go by standard UK cup sizes – check out their website here to determine your size, and maybe go down a bit! **

Here I am in the Vivien. From the side it’s a great, rounded, perky shape. My finger here is pointing towards the underwire:

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An angled shot to show the curve of my breasts fitting into the bra:

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Full frontal:

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I love plunge bras – for the past year or so I’ve been purchasing exclusively padded plunges. I sometimes have an issue with this, as my breasts are bottom-heavy and very soft. When plunge bras are wider set, I usually need to size up in the cup to avoid spillage – i.e. quad-boobing if I start to move around too quickly. I find with these Comexim bras, this isn’t an issue. I am filling out the cup fully, but don’t have any spillage issues. I haven’t figured out why this is, but I like it!

Here are some shots of me in the Basic.

The puckering visible in the front is just fabric over the padding.

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This bra has 3 hooks instead of the 2 on the Vivien – I do not know why the same shaped bra in the same size from the same company would have that difference, but I don’t mind. I found this bra to be tighter in the band, and have been wearing it with an extender for a one-hook lengthening. It sits nice and level across my back.

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The underwire is easier to see in this bra than with the Vivien:

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Again, nice and round from the side!

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Wearing these bras for a week made me realize that I had been settling for less than the best on some of my other bras. Every time I checked myself out, I thought, “How perky!” It was great. For example, this is a standard V-neck t-shirt over the Comexim Basic:

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Conversely, here’s how the same shirt falls when worn over my Panache Porcelain Plunge (nude) in a 30H:

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I think my Panache bra is going to be sold soon! It does not work as well for me as it should.

Do I Use Too Many Products?

My boyfriend has more clothes than me, but on any given day our dressing room is taken over by my “beauty products” – haircare, makeup, facial stuff – cleansers, moisturizers, and who knows what else – and jewelry (I shouldn’t count that, I suppose, but I do.)

I managed to move 300 miles from home in a car trip. I own a 2007 black Jetta, Wolfsburg edition (her name is Nymeria, for all you GOT fans out there), and I was able to load a futon, my closet, and other essentials into the trunk and back seat of that car. The nomad in me is irritated by the fact that a seemingly significant portion of that space was taken up with what I label “health and beauty.”

I currently use, or have used recently, all of these: shampoo, conditioner, body wash, shaving lotion, razor, hard wax, wax strips, hair bleach, facial hair wax, AM face wash, PM face wash, AM facial moisturizer, PM facial moisturizer, hand lotion, body oil, body lotion, chapstick, makeup (eyeliner, eyeshadow, mascara, eyelash curler, concealer, powder/foundation, blush, lip color), acne spot treatment, Neosporin (additional spot treatment), facial scrub, body scrub, nail care (polish, polish remover, buffer, file, clippers, toe nail clippers, cuticle nips, cuticle pusher), tampons, a menstrual cup, pantiliners, deodorant, body powder, hair styling cream, hair heat protectorant, toothpaste, dental floss, commercial dry shampoo, homemade dry shampoo, hair color, a hair straightener, and hair curlers.

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I moved with all of this!

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Makeup and tools.

 

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The overflow.

 

This list is exhaustive! And conversely, my boyfriend has a multi-use body wash/shampoo/conditioner in the shower, and he uses toothpaste and deodorant daily. Every ten days or so he busts out his beard trimmer and nail clippers. If we’re going on a date he might pull out a cologne.

So why, why, do I own so many products? And I’m sure many other women own plenty more!

Well, naturally, I want to look and feel beautiful. And despite feminism, every woman is beautiful, etc etc – things I truly do believe in – I will not feel my best on a day my hair isn’t cooperating, or I have a massive zit blowing up on my chin, or I actually look like I stayed up all night reading about Kibbe types on the internet. And there are ways to hide those things – enter, gloriously, products.

Over the past nine months or so I have been dabbling in “crunchiness” – that land of diy cosmetics and washing your hair with baking soda. Some things have worked, some things haven’t. At some point I will post about them, probably. I now have a second level of concern when I look at the list of things I routinely put on my body – “Is this natural? Harmful? Been shown to cause cancer in rats?” So I’m dabbling along, making some of my own things, buying absurdly expensive other things (that have not been shown to cause cancer in rats), and still growing my product list, instead of shrinking it, because I don’t want to get rid of what I have that works.

The short answer is, yes, for me, for my lifestyle, I own too many products. They stress me out. I felt the need to write a blog post about it. And so the solution to this is to keep plugging away at experimentation and simplification, just like with everything else in my life.